Space Bound-by Eminem

This is one of the realest and deepest songs ever. Eminem is the modern day Edgar Alan Poe. No matter what your opinion of him is, you have to respect his style. His new album is so raw and full of emotion. I literally feel his pain through this song. His lyrics are so graphic and vivid. Even w/o a video I could still play the whole thing out in my mind. I have mad respect for his writing. Recovery is his best album by far. He has always been someone we could count on to speak the truth, and now he's speakin the truth about himself. I really dont' have the words to describe how I felt when I first heard Space Bound. I was watchin videos on youtube and saw this song. I hadn't heard it yet so I watched the vid. The chorus caught my attention so I Googled the lyrics to see what the chorus was saying. I literally was sitting there with my mouth wide open when I finished reading the lyrics. I have never actually taken the time to look up and read any of his lyrics. He is so talented that it's sick. Like I said, I literally feel his pain. I want to find the girl he wrote the song about and be like "Seriously??!!! WTH!" That's how vivid the lyrics are. I feel like I am actually going through this with him lol. Gotta give it up to tha man! This album is some of his best work!

Miserable People a.k.a Debbie Downers

I absoultely can't stand to be around someone who is miesrable 24-7! I am happy and perky when the conversation starts with the person and then by the end of the convo i want to throw MYSELF off a bridge! Life is way too short to be miserable! You only get one shot at life, so don't blow it. What kills me is when I am happy and cheerful and they rain on my parade. Like it's my fault they choose to be miserable. There comes a time when you have to realize that some people aren't going to help themselves and change their attitude, so you just have to change your friends. No matter what you are going through there is always someone who has it worse than you do. So lets all put our big girl panties on, and get over it! Go dance in the rain, laugh til it hurts, smile at someone for no reason, make someone else smile, no matter what it is just do SOMETHING!

Haters No More

Today started out a little rough for me. I was having some moments of insecurity. Issues with my body that I am working on started getting to me. Somehow dealing with these feelings got me to thinking about all women. I realized how hateful we have all became towards each other. Jealousy has become the number one issue between all women at some point in life. As a general rule for my own life I TRY not to hate on beautiful women. In the past i have complimented them on their beauty (this once got me in trouble at work though and a customer told me she wasn't gay. i told her neither was I). There still have been times, especially when I was younger, that I actually almost hated a girl because I was jealous of her. As I have grown I have realized how destructive this behavior was. So I started thinking, what would happen if we all went out of our way a few times a day to compliment each other. Even strangers, you know the girls you see on the beach who look like Jesus kissed their bodies and transfered his perfection to them lol. Just think if 3 different people a day said positive things to you just because, how much better your self esteem would be. So this is what i suggest: Try to make an effort to compliment at least one woman a day instead of hating on her. And while you're at it compliment yourself! You are supposed to be your number 1 fan! ok I'm done for now.

Thursday July 7th
So it’s 7:24 am and I’m sitting here watching "Always Be My Baby" on Youtube. There are no words to express the feeling I get watching this video. It always reminds me of 6th grade at Lakeview Middle and a camp we went to. I was soooo in love with Matt Knight! He was just so cute and sooo sweet to me. Of course we were "just friends" even though I wanted to be his girlfriend sooo bad! This video is just so special to me. The video actually takes place at a camp and the kids look like they are about the age I was when we were at the camp. I think I watched this video like 30 times before we left for camp and I had it in my head that Matt and I were going to basically play out the video. I had this whole fantasy worked out in my head. We were both going to sneak out of our cabins and he was going to kiss me. I have always lived in a fantasy world and I fully believe that anything is possible, so Matt actually deciding to kiss me was a possibility in my mind. Well the last day of camp I was so down because my fantasy hadn’t happened. One of my girlfriends (who was also friends with Matt) decided to go tell Matt about my whole fantasy and how I was now sad because it didn’t happen. I wasn’t aware that she had told him anything. Well as soon as we were all in bed and the lights were out she tells me to go outside. I was like "why"? She said "Just do it". I snuck outside and standing on the porch was Matt. He said "So I hear you’ve been watching too many music videos" Haha. I was speechless. I seriously didn’t know what to say. The next thing I know he leaned in and gave me a kiss on the lips! It was so sweet and innocent, but it was one of the most memorable moments in my life. He was never interested in me as anything other than a friend, but he was always so kind to me. He was never mean or hurtful when I would say things about how much I liked him and wanted to be his girlfriend. He would always say "you are my best friend and I want to keep you in my life and I never want to hurt you". There were so many other times in 6th grade that he took up for me, or just did or said something to make me smile. There are those people in your life who leave such a big impression and never know. I have tried to find him on Facebook and Myspace and haven’t had any luck. He was such an amazing person to me. *You never know what your actions may mean to another person, so always try to be kind and caring*

Forever in Love with my Boybands!!!

There is just nothing like the feeling i get when I'm at a NKOTB or BSB or NKOTBSB concert! I grew up infatuated with them all. First there was the New Kids On The Block, I was about 5 when i became obsessed with them. My room was plastered with NKOTB stuff! I had the sheets, comforter, shirts, pajamas, cups, posters, lunch box, book bag, folders, pencils, barbie dolls, tapes, necklaces, bracelets, you name it, I probably had it! When i was 6 a 2nd cousin asked my mama if she could take me to see the NKOTB in concert at Furman University. My mama wouldn't let me go, because i was 6 and the cousin was, in my mama's words, a wild teenager. She said that my cuz would lose me. I didn't speak to my mama for 4 days lol. I was so mad! I think i actually cried when i found out they weren't making any more cd's or touring anymore. The blow was softened when i was reading one of the teen magazines one day and saw pics of a group called The Backstreet Boys. I begged my mama to take me to Wal-mart so i could see if i could find their cd. And there it was, the single "Quit Playin Games with My Heart" I was in love! Lol! I was trying to find any magazine i could that had pics or articles of them. I went to tons of music stores to see if they had any other BSB cd's and i bought an over seas album. I swear i wore those CDs out! I was always in love with AJ, from the very first min. He just seemed....different, in a good way. He stood out and had his own style and swagga. I think i owned every book they made about them. I knew all their Bdays, all of their full names, all of their hometowns, i think i even knew all their siblings names. My room was wallpapered with them! I saw them in concert 8 times before i was 18. Some would think i should have "outgrown" this by now, NOPE! When i met my hubby i was 20. I found out that BSB was coming to Charlotte NC and i wanted to go sooo bad. So for my birthday he surprised me with tickets! And God Bless his heart, he went with me to the concert! It was amazing! Then (i think Jesus smiled on me) and the NKOTB got back together and put out a new CD and went on tour!!! You can bet your butt i was there to see them!!!! Then 2 years ago BSB was having a concert outside of a Bar in Charlotte. My hubby and I drove up there (What a good man i have lol) and actually i was like 5 feet away from BSB! it was a short concert but i was still in teenage girl heaven :) And finally, last night on June 22 at Phillips Arena in Atlanta Georgia, all my dreams and fantasies came true. The New Kids on The Block and Backstreet Boys were in concert together, NKOTBSB!!!!! There are no words to describe how i felt watching that concert! I am a 27 year old woman who felt like a love struck teenager all night! Haha! It was by far the BEST concert i have EVER been to, and that's saying a lot because i have been to 57 total so far. Until the day i take my last breath i will forever be in love with my boybands! They are a part of my life and a big part of most of my memories. No shame in my NKOTBSB game!

Birthday Blog

So my Bday is on Thursday and I will be 27! I am almost 30 years old! That's so hard for me to believe be/c i don't feel "almost 30"! With that in mind I am happy with where my life is at right now. I have come into my own as a woman and I'm exactly who i want to be. I have the most amazing husband by my side who totally lets me be me, 100%. We have such an awesome marriage that sometimes i find myself waiting on the bottom to fall out be/c i feel like it's too good to be true! I am in college pursuing my newest dream of becoming a psychologist, and I will do whatever it takes to succeed and become a licensed pyschologist. We don't have any kids yet and that's ok with me for now. I feel like when the time is right God will give us children to enjoy and mess up lol. As for now I am in such an amazing place in my life right now and I know it is only going to get better!

ATTENTION ALL WOMEN!!!!!!

I think somewhere along the line women didn't get the memo of how to keep their men happy. There are a lot of important elements in a marriage, communication, trust, honesty, humor, and SEX! It seems to just be the way things are that when you get married sex goes out the window! This is the opposite of how it should be. Let's be realistic, we know men think about sex the majority of their day, so it shouldn't be a surprise that they kind of expect it from you! It's far too easy to fall into a routine and get comfortable in life and put sex on the back burner. You should never be too busy for sex! If you actually took the time to enjoy it you would find it is a stress reliever and might help with your daily tension. I have come to find men and women don't really communicate about their sex lives either. My husband and I tell each other "yeah i like this but don't like that" or "do this more, or do it this way" If you coach each other on what works and doesn't work maybe more women out there would be having orgasms! That is also a sad thing, most women have never had an actual orgasm! If you could have an orgasm i can bet you that you would want it more. Im just sayin that we as married women need to realize how important our sex life is. Not sayin there is an excuse for cheating, but if your man is happy he will have no reason to even think about looking elsewhere! So ladies step it up! Don't let sex become a chore you "have to do" ENJOY IT! Sex is a healthy part of marriage and you should never be ashamed to talk about it! (not that anyone reads this except you Sunny) Got Questions, feel free to ask me!

That's just me!

Some may call me mean, rude, or heartless, but that's not actually the case. See i am just the type of person that tells it like it is, straight up! I don't see the need in sugar coating things just to keep you in denial! Actually i think America as a whole would be in a much better place if everyone took on my attitude. I mean if you were on a date and had something in your teeth, wouldn't you want someone to tell you? MOST people would want to know! So doesn't that same thing apply to you as a person in general? I just feel like everyone is caught up in lies, lies about everything! I mean someone asks you "Does this shirt make me look fat?" So you lie and say no so you don't hurt their feelings....ok now you actually should tell them that they look fat so they aren't walkin around struttin lookin like a hot mess in it! I would be more pissed at you as a friend if you lied to me and let me look stupid, as opposed to telling me and hurting my feelings! At least you are the only person who saw me lookin stupid! LOL! I have very strong opinions about things and if you ask for my opinion then you better be prepared for the answer! It seems pointless to keep lying to people and letting them think they are good. Examples: If you suck in bed wouldn't you want someone to tell you so you could improve it? If you are a toxic person that no one ever want to be around wouldn't you want to know? If your breathe is kickin wouldn't you want to know? See i am really not a mean person unless you consider being honest mean. If you have a problem hearing the truth, then change the truth! I will be the first to admit that i hate constructive criticism in the moment that it is being given to me but once i am over my anger i am grateful to the person who gave it to me! I mean i am for the most part as close to perfect as it gets but i have a few flaws :) (this is a joke..haha) If everyone would start being honest with people and calling them out we would live in a better place! I can't help it that i am of a few great people that actually speak their mind, but it's such a great thing! So if you ever want a brutally honest opinion then i am your girl! ~ Gucci ~

That Mouth!

I have finally reached the point in my life where i realized that I simply just don't care what people say about me! :) I have been doin me for 25 years now just fine! I know who i am and how awesome i am, don't need your opinions or input. If you feel the need to talk about me and my life then that just shows that you are lacking something in your own life! I seriously think that you should be worrying about what's going on in your life instead of mine! I am good! Got a great man, great marriage, and i am happy with who i am. So what it boils down to is....your opinion isn't needed or welcomed...THANK YOU! So the next time you go to say something about me and my life...just don't! Focus all that energy on you and your life. Just a reminder... I have managed for 25 years on my own without everyone else's opinions and i will be able to continue to function without yours. Thanks! Peace! lol

Case of the fake people I am just so completely done with some fake people in my life! I have a no fake people policy from here on out! So that means that some skanks will no longer get my attention and definitely not my sympathy! I really don’t get it! I just don’t understand why all the games are necessary! I mean just go ahead and tell everyone that you suck and get it over with! Talk, talk, talk, blah, blah, blah! That is all that ever comes out of your mouth, pure B.S. I mean if you really feel like everything is a competition in life then I’m sorry but I won! I mean it must be exhausting trying to keep all the lies straight. I know you think you have everyone fooled and I have to admit you had me for a while, but not now! As bad as I want to call you out and expose you for the fake ho you are, I choose to let you self destruct. Because no matter how fooled you have everyone, at some point other people are going to find you out! But until then I will just have to be satisfied with the knowledge that I rock and you just…..SUCK!