Jealous by Nick Jonas (Jealousy)

This song is catchy and it gets stuck in my head for  days. Listening to this song is what inspired me to write this post about jealousy. There is a fine line between jealousy and controlling. I personally believe that a LITTLE bit of jealousy in a relationship is a good thing. Again, I'm talking about a LITTLE bit of jealousy. I 100 % agree that you should trust your partner, but a little bit of jealousy has nothing to do with trust and is healthy. Being slightly jealous shows you still have passion for your partner. Now that being said you have to be careful and make sure your jealousy isn't out of control. I am a firm believer in letting someone be who they are in a relationship and if their personality isn't what you're looking for then just don't date them. You shouldn't try to change someone just to fit your expectations.  Some people are like me and just have a very friendly and flirty personality (I've even been told that I flirt with girls!) and if you are a very jealous person you should steer clear of people like me lol. Keep the passion to a maximum and the jealousy to  a minimum.

"Here's To Never Growing Up"

I think Avril was reading my mind when she wrote this song (well minus some of the lyrics lol). We are the same age 29 (she will be 29 in a few months) and I am so glad to see that she agrees with me and shares my philosophy on life. I have gotten a little bit of lip lately from a few people referring to me growing up. I have purple streaks in my hair (of course they are hidden underneath because my job won’t let me have them visible) , I act like I’m 20 most days & I go to concerts 24-7. I wasn’t aware that hair color and going to concerts made me “immature” or made me childish but if so then good for me ! I have always been energetic, crazy, & colorful. My having purple in my hair is a straight representation of me. I am responsible when I need to be, faithful to my husband and work 40+ hours a week, AND I’m in school. <-- 24-7="" act="" all="" allow="" am="" amp="" and="" any="" anymore="" are="" blast="" body="" both="" but="" by="" crazy="" dance="" day="" do.="" doing="" don="" exactly="" feel="" for.="" fun="" gonna="" goofy="" grow="" grown="" have="" hey="" how="" husband="" i="" if="" it="" just="" know="" life="" live="" love="" m="" matter="" mature="" me="" miserable="" music="" my="" no="" one="" other="" people="" physically="" randomly="" s="" say="" serious="" should="" so="" sorry="" spend="" t="" that="" the="" then="" they="" things="" to="" together="" until="" up="" us="" way.="" what="" won="" wouldn="" you="" your="">

Excited for the Future!

I am so excited! I have recently been feelin complacent with the way things are in my life. I just feel like we (my husband & I) are young and we are just sitting on the sidelines watching life pass us by. I have always said I would never leave here (Greenville SC) because I love my hometown. I love everything about the south: the friendly people, the weather, knowin everybody, sweet tea, lightin bugs and everything else! So you can imagine my surprise when after telling my husband how I have been feeling I said “Let’s move to Nashville!” He was shocked that I would ever want to leave but instantly said “Let’s go.” We have since been making plans and discussing everything. I have had tons of people ask me “why Nashville?” Honestly I can’t say exactly what made me want to move to Nashville. It is a totally different place that always has something going on and it is still southern. My life revolves around music and Nashville is “Music City” so it makes total sense :). I am not trying to become a singer or entertainer, I would just love to be surrounded by music 24-7. There are so many things to think about and consider that I think I will probably get overwhelmed but I am sure we will manage. We did decide that it makes sense for me to finish my degree here because I will be finished in the fall of 2015. Then hopefully I can get into a college in TN to get my Bachelor’s degree in Psychology. Just thinking about it all makes me wanna move now! Then on the flip side I think about having to sell our house, finding somewhere to live in Nashville, finding jobs, both of us getting in to a college, and leaving my family. I think leaving my family will be the hardest part for me. I know they will only be 5 ½ hours away but I’m used to having them right around the street from me. I do feel like this is the best decision for my husband and me though. Until my husband gets his engineering degree he is going to be stuck on third shift at his job. He still has a few years before he gets his degree. I just feel like there will be so many more opportunities for him in Nashville. This is just such an exciting decision for us & I hope when the time comes we can get everything all worked out. I know that if it is God’s will that it will all fall into place :)

Space Bound-by Eminem

This is one of the realest and deepest songs ever. Eminem is the modern day Edgar Alan Poe. No matter what your opinion of him is, you have to respect his style. His new album is so raw and full of emotion. I literally feel his pain through this song. His lyrics are so graphic and vivid. Even w/o a video I could still play the whole thing out in my mind. I have mad respect for his writing. Recovery is his best album by far. He has always been someone we could count on to speak the truth, and now he's speakin the truth about himself. I really dont' have the words to describe how I felt when I first heard Space Bound. I was watchin videos on youtube and saw this song. I hadn't heard it yet so I watched the vid. The chorus caught my attention so I Googled the lyrics to see what the chorus was saying. I literally was sitting there with my mouth wide open when I finished reading the lyrics. I have never actually taken the time to look up and read any of his lyrics. He is so talented that it's sick. Like I said, I literally feel his pain. I want to find the girl he wrote the song about and be like "Seriously??!!! WTH!" That's how vivid the lyrics are. I feel like I am actually going through this with him lol. Gotta give it up to tha man! This album is some of his best work!

Thursday July 7th
So it’s 7:24 am and I’m sitting here watching "Always Be My Baby" on Youtube. There are no words to express the feeling I get watching this video. It always reminds me of 6th grade at Lakeview Middle and a camp we went to. I was soooo in love with Matt Knight! He was just so cute and sooo sweet to me. Of course we were "just friends" even though I wanted to be his girlfriend sooo bad! This video is just so special to me. The video actually takes place at a camp and the kids look like they are about the age I was when we were at the camp. I think I watched this video like 30 times before we left for camp and I had it in my head that Matt and I were going to basically play out the video. I had this whole fantasy worked out in my head. We were both going to sneak out of our cabins and he was going to kiss me. I have always lived in a fantasy world and I fully believe that anything is possible, so Matt actually deciding to kiss me was a possibility in my mind. Well the last day of camp I was so down because my fantasy hadn’t happened. One of my girlfriends (who was also friends with Matt) decided to go tell Matt about my whole fantasy and how I was now sad because it didn’t happen. I wasn’t aware that she had told him anything. Well as soon as we were all in bed and the lights were out she tells me to go outside. I was like "why"? She said "Just do it". I snuck outside and standing on the porch was Matt. He said "So I hear you’ve been watching too many music videos" Haha. I was speechless. I seriously didn’t know what to say. The next thing I know he leaned in and gave me a kiss on the lips! It was so sweet and innocent, but it was one of the most memorable moments in my life. He was never interested in me as anything other than a friend, but he was always so kind to me. He was never mean or hurtful when I would say things about how much I liked him and wanted to be his girlfriend. He would always say "you are my best friend and I want to keep you in my life and I never want to hurt you". There were so many other times in 6th grade that he took up for me, or just did or said something to make me smile. There are those people in your life who leave such a big impression and never know. I have tried to find him on Facebook and Myspace and haven’t had any luck. He was such an amazing person to me. *You never know what your actions may mean to another person, so always try to be kind and caring*

Forever in Love with my Boybands!!!

There is just nothing like the feeling i get when I'm at a NKOTB or BSB or NKOTBSB concert! I grew up infatuated with them all. First there was the New Kids On The Block, I was about 5 when i became obsessed with them. My room was plastered with NKOTB stuff! I had the sheets, comforter, shirts, pajamas, cups, posters, lunch box, book bag, folders, pencils, barbie dolls, tapes, necklaces, bracelets, you name it, I probably had it! When i was 6 a 2nd cousin asked my mama if she could take me to see the NKOTB in concert at Furman University. My mama wouldn't let me go, because i was 6 and the cousin was, in my mama's words, a wild teenager. She said that my cuz would lose me. I didn't speak to my mama for 4 days lol. I was so mad! I think i actually cried when i found out they weren't making any more cd's or touring anymore. The blow was softened when i was reading one of the teen magazines one day and saw pics of a group called The Backstreet Boys. I begged my mama to take me to Wal-mart so i could see if i could find their cd. And there it was, the single "Quit Playin Games with My Heart" I was in love! Lol! I was trying to find any magazine i could that had pics or articles of them. I went to tons of music stores to see if they had any other BSB cd's and i bought an over seas album. I swear i wore those CDs out! I was always in love with AJ, from the very first min. He just seemed....different, in a good way. He stood out and had his own style and swagga. I think i owned every book they made about them. I knew all their Bdays, all of their full names, all of their hometowns, i think i even knew all their siblings names. My room was wallpapered with them! I saw them in concert 8 times before i was 18. Some would think i should have "outgrown" this by now, NOPE! When i met my hubby i was 20. I found out that BSB was coming to Charlotte NC and i wanted to go sooo bad. So for my birthday he surprised me with tickets! And God Bless his heart, he went with me to the concert! It was amazing! Then (i think Jesus smiled on me) and the NKOTB got back together and put out a new CD and went on tour!!! You can bet your butt i was there to see them!!!! Then 2 years ago BSB was having a concert outside of a Bar in Charlotte. My hubby and I drove up there (What a good man i have lol) and actually i was like 5 feet away from BSB! it was a short concert but i was still in teenage girl heaven :) And finally, last night on June 22 at Phillips Arena in Atlanta Georgia, all my dreams and fantasies came true. The New Kids on The Block and Backstreet Boys were in concert together, NKOTBSB!!!!! There are no words to describe how i felt watching that concert! I am a 27 year old woman who felt like a love struck teenager all night! Haha! It was by far the BEST concert i have EVER been to, and that's saying a lot because i have been to 57 total so far. Until the day i take my last breath i will forever be in love with my boybands! They are a part of my life and a big part of most of my memories. No shame in my NKOTBSB game!

ATTENTION ALL WOMEN!!!!!!

I think somewhere along the line women didn't get the memo of how to keep their men happy. There are a lot of important elements in a marriage, communication, trust, honesty, humor, and SEX! It seems to just be the way things are that when you get married sex goes out the window! This is the opposite of how it should be. Let's be realistic, we know men think about sex the majority of their day, so it shouldn't be a surprise that they kind of expect it from you! It's far too easy to fall into a routine and get comfortable in life and put sex on the back burner. You should never be too busy for sex! If you actually took the time to enjoy it you would find it is a stress reliever and might help with your daily tension. I have come to find men and women don't really communicate about their sex lives either. My husband and I tell each other "yeah i like this but don't like that" or "do this more, or do it this way" If you coach each other on what works and doesn't work maybe more women out there would be having orgasms! That is also a sad thing, most women have never had an actual orgasm! If you could have an orgasm i can bet you that you would want it more. Im just sayin that we as married women need to realize how important our sex life is. Not sayin there is an excuse for cheating, but if your man is happy he will have no reason to even think about looking elsewhere! So ladies step it up! Don't let sex become a chore you "have to do" ENJOY IT! Sex is a healthy part of marriage and you should never be ashamed to talk about it! (not that anyone reads this except you Sunny) Got Questions, feel free to ask me!